My head is sort of spinning at the moment. I've been immersing myself in a variety of different learnings, some within my area of expertise, some way outside of it. I think I have to do this, but the bonus is that no matter how clogged my head feels or how much it spins I sort of enjoy it. Being curious is the baseline for me, and so satisfying that curiosity is always going to be fun.
Not surprisingly maybe I've never felt more competent than I do now. My head buzzes with new information and in its way quickly begins joining the dots between the separate pieces, imagining and extrapolating before synthesising into a neat set of bullet points. Out of all this come opportunities which I'm itching to exploit.
In the last couple of days I've written a short piece on Collective Intelligence for my soon to be released website, and updated another piece I've called the Human Element. I've been in contact with professionals in Asia and the states looking to outsource expertise I don't have to finalise my business Facebook and twitter presence, to manage lead generation and possibly content management. I've learned a lot about these things recently, but I'm not expert enough to do it myself, nor do I have a time - and at $15/hour why not get someone else to do it for me?
While a lot of this is related to my career and business I am also putting time into other areas of my life. For the last couple of months I've been seeing a personal trainer 2-3 times a week. I'm getting pretty fit, and beginning to look both trim and pretty cut. All good. I'm motivated to continue on this path though I hate the exercise - the 'high' people speak of is a myth to me. No pain no gain as they say. I know that I have to work - and to suffer to some degree - if I'm to achieve my end goal. That's the cost, I'm prepared to pay it.
I get competitive with these things. It grows as a challenge in my head to the point I feel as if I have been dared to go harder, longer, further. My commitment grows out of a belligerent defiance. And because of the way I think I find myself wanting to know more. To that end I have been reading up on human physiology in reference to the effects of diet and exercise on the human body. I find the cause and effect fascinating from a scientific viewpoint. From a personal viewpoint I have adopted some of the findings into my life. I've modified my diet and am exercising regularly with or without my PT. This is not forever - I value the good things in life too much - but I'll give it a month. If it goes to plan I should be pretty sweet by then.
Last night I went out with a girl I met speed dating last week. She's cute and interesting. She's the project manager for a new Australian retail website. We found much to talk about in her work, which interests me and which overlaps some of my expertise. I grilled her about certain aspects wanting to know more. Outside of that we shared a few glasses of good pinot, a good meal, and a bit of each other.
I'm seeing the Irish girl Thursday and catching up for drinks with a Kiwi next week. In a moment I'll set off to the myotherapist so he can work on my back, which is much improved. Then it's lunch with a friend who also happens to be a job opportunity.
How do I feel? Fit and healthy, strong and smart. But also frustrated. I need to apply these things to make them worthwhile. I need it financially, but I also need it spiritually. I've got into this business for the good of my soul as much as the health of my bank balance. I want to make a difference, I want to show why I can do and run with it as far as I can go. Just have to make that happen now.
